Tuesday, February 15, 2011
My My I have a lot of catching up to do
But for now a photo of Sweet Pea at our last RE apt. We have our NT scan in a few hours as well...
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Follow up from ER visit
For some reason I was not worried at all. Not in the slightest. So C and I go to the RE's and the RN comes in and starts the scan and as soon as I saw Sweet Pea I said " thats a big baby!" RN said "Sure is and looking great. Right on track!" We got our photo and started talking about the NT scan and blood work etc. We go in next Thursday for our Prenatal Apt, which is a group meeting for 2 hours. Then on the 31st of this month we have our last RE apt. Im a bit sad about it but I know its time to move on and let them help another couples dream come true.
Tonight we are going to look for a baby name book and other books at Borders. I will post a photo of Sweet Pea later.
Tonight we are going to look for a baby name book and other books at Borders. I will post a photo of Sweet Pea later.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Something bigger then me
I am an adamant reader of Kelly Hamptons blog. Almost a year ago her second child Nella, was born into this world and has forever changed the lives of her family. Nella was born with Downs Syndrome and has taught her mother what it means to love. Please visit KellyHampton.com and consider donating even just $5 to Nella's ONEder Fund!
Below video was taken from Kellyhampton.com
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Update on Us...
We had our second u/s this past Monday and all looked amazing!
and then last night happened..
C left for work before 1am and I was in bed. Not long after she left I had 1 cramp and then it stopped. I thought nothing and turned to get comfortable in bed and I felt a gush. I assumed that it was from my progesterone supps but this time it felt like more. I got up from bed and headed to the bathroom only to see blood dripping down my leg. I got into the bathroom and freaked out, there was blood everywhere. On my legs, my thighs. I kept repeating " no no no no no o god no no no please no" I semi cleaned up as best I could and realized I was shaking. I tried to get ahold of C with no luck. I headed to the ER with my mother who drove as I continued to try to call C. When I got ahold of her she was already telling work that she had to go and she was telling me " baby im on my way. Im coming ill be there as soon as I can" Part of me wanted to cry, worrying about Sweet Pea and worried about C being careful as she drove to me.
As I got to the ER I explained what was going on and they took me right back. I had no cramping and no pain either. The Dr came in and gave me a pelvic exam to check my cervix, which was closed. She said she didn't see anymore blood just a small clot. About this time C arrived and stayed with me the whole time, holding my hand. We had an external ultrasound ( wow the external sucks as compared to the internal) and showed our amazing baby and its heartbeat beating away. Dr said she could see the fetal pole and all looked well. I was discharged and brought home.
Im not sure I have ever been so scared. I knew that if we were loosing Sweet Pea that there was nothing anyone could do. My heart and body hurt so bad not knowing if our baby was ok. It was such a relief to see the h/b.
After coming home I took a shower and ate a PB&J sandwich to help with the m/s ive been having. About 6am I woke up and headed to the bathroom and threw up for about 5-10 mins. I thought it was never going to end. I finally headed back to bed and slept until 10ish. C got up about 12 and heated up a piece of pizza for me since I was hungry. Not 2 minutes after eating said pizza, it all came back up. I am miserable needless to say and cant hold much down. C was great and stayed with me and then went shopping for some bland foods, crackers, jello, applesause etc. Im hoping the flu goes away...In the meantime I rest for me and Sweet Pea and try to drink enough.
Below video was taken from Kellyhampton.com
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Update on Us...
We had our second u/s this past Monday and all looked amazing!
and then last night happened..
C left for work before 1am and I was in bed. Not long after she left I had 1 cramp and then it stopped. I thought nothing and turned to get comfortable in bed and I felt a gush. I assumed that it was from my progesterone supps but this time it felt like more. I got up from bed and headed to the bathroom only to see blood dripping down my leg. I got into the bathroom and freaked out, there was blood everywhere. On my legs, my thighs. I kept repeating " no no no no no o god no no no please no" I semi cleaned up as best I could and realized I was shaking. I tried to get ahold of C with no luck. I headed to the ER with my mother who drove as I continued to try to call C. When I got ahold of her she was already telling work that she had to go and she was telling me " baby im on my way. Im coming ill be there as soon as I can" Part of me wanted to cry, worrying about Sweet Pea and worried about C being careful as she drove to me.
As I got to the ER I explained what was going on and they took me right back. I had no cramping and no pain either. The Dr came in and gave me a pelvic exam to check my cervix, which was closed. She said she didn't see anymore blood just a small clot. About this time C arrived and stayed with me the whole time, holding my hand. We had an external ultrasound ( wow the external sucks as compared to the internal) and showed our amazing baby and its heartbeat beating away. Dr said she could see the fetal pole and all looked well. I was discharged and brought home.
Im not sure I have ever been so scared. I knew that if we were loosing Sweet Pea that there was nothing anyone could do. My heart and body hurt so bad not knowing if our baby was ok. It was such a relief to see the h/b.
After coming home I took a shower and ate a PB&J sandwich to help with the m/s ive been having. About 6am I woke up and headed to the bathroom and threw up for about 5-10 mins. I thought it was never going to end. I finally headed back to bed and slept until 10ish. C got up about 12 and heated up a piece of pizza for me since I was hungry. Not 2 minutes after eating said pizza, it all came back up. I am miserable needless to say and cant hold much down. C was great and stayed with me and then went shopping for some bland foods, crackers, jello, applesause etc. Im hoping the flu goes away...In the meantime I rest for me and Sweet Pea and try to drink enough.
Friday, January 7, 2011
Our first u/s
Of course I was nervous. Who wouldn't be? After all we have gone through to be at that moment, that threshold of emotions was bound to burst.
As we enter the clinic and walked to the counter, it still felt unreal. It felt as if we were there for another mid cycle u/s but when the man behind the counter said "Alright that will be $5" I said " Excuse me did you just say $5?!" to which he replied "Yup, prenatal appointment, Your pregnant right?" I started to get all flustered and said " yes, yes I am" It still feels like im lying to people when I say im pregnant. So we pay and sit down for what felt like forever, in reality I believe it was only a few moments.
We go into the room and i undress and C and I are all smiles and kisses. Talking about this, that and the other just to pass the time. The knock at the door felt like my heart had been jump started by jump jumper cables attached to a big rig. Here we were, the moment of truth. Our nurse comes in and asks how we are etc etc. I lay down on the table and the lights turn off. I reach for C's hand to squeeze, she squeezes back. I feel like after all we have been thorough those hand squeezes are me telling her "I am so scared" and her telling me "Its okay, I am to". So we start and I immediately see the sac as she gets the camera situated. I see the sac, the beautiful sac that holds our baby. Our small grain of rice, itsy bitsy tiny little baby. She looks and right there, right at the very top. There it is. No visible heartbeat yet, which she said was normal for how far along I was at that point (6w1d) She reassured that its normal and she see's it most of the time. For us not to worry because she's not. She pokes around a bit and see's what she believed was the fetal pole. Then did some more poking around to check for "others" (C was so scared there would be 2!) and we were done. She printed out our picture and we were beaming. She said to schedule another apt for next week (Jan 10) and then we could get everything squared away, such as EDD etc.
So without further ado, Sweet Pea. It is small but our entire world nonetheless =)
As we enter the clinic and walked to the counter, it still felt unreal. It felt as if we were there for another mid cycle u/s but when the man behind the counter said "Alright that will be $5" I said " Excuse me did you just say $5?!" to which he replied "Yup, prenatal appointment, Your pregnant right?" I started to get all flustered and said " yes, yes I am" It still feels like im lying to people when I say im pregnant. So we pay and sit down for what felt like forever, in reality I believe it was only a few moments.
We go into the room and i undress and C and I are all smiles and kisses. Talking about this, that and the other just to pass the time. The knock at the door felt like my heart had been jump started by jump jumper cables attached to a big rig. Here we were, the moment of truth. Our nurse comes in and asks how we are etc etc. I lay down on the table and the lights turn off. I reach for C's hand to squeeze, she squeezes back. I feel like after all we have been thorough those hand squeezes are me telling her "I am so scared" and her telling me "Its okay, I am to". So we start and I immediately see the sac as she gets the camera situated. I see the sac, the beautiful sac that holds our baby. Our small grain of rice, itsy bitsy tiny little baby. She looks and right there, right at the very top. There it is. No visible heartbeat yet, which she said was normal for how far along I was at that point (6w1d) She reassured that its normal and she see's it most of the time. For us not to worry because she's not. She pokes around a bit and see's what she believed was the fetal pole. Then did some more poking around to check for "others" (C was so scared there would be 2!) and we were done. She printed out our picture and we were beaming. She said to schedule another apt for next week (Jan 10) and then we could get everything squared away, such as EDD etc.
So without further ado, Sweet Pea. It is small but our entire world nonetheless =)
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Tomorrow is the day
2:10pm C and I go in for our first ultrasound of our baby bear. Hoping and praying we see a heartbeat
Thursday, December 30, 2010
A real weekly update! Week 6
Let's see, I feel better about eating and the heartburn has died down a bit. Im still the gas queen, burping and farting =/ quite a bit. Not as tired either.
Let's take a look at what thebump.com says is goin on in the womb right about now.
Baby's now the size of a sweet pea!
Growing like crazy, baby is starting to sprout eyes, ears, nose, cheeks, and chin. Those little hands and feet -- still webbed like paddles -- might wiggle by week's end, the heart is beating (almost twice as fast as yours!), and blood is starting to circulate.
Growing like crazy, baby is starting to sprout eyes, ears, nose, cheeks, and chin. Those little hands and feet -- still webbed like paddles -- might wiggle by week's end, the heart is beating (almost twice as fast as yours!), and blood is starting to circulate.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
O yea my blog, that thing I forgot about!
It deserves an update!
The week we found out
Was also christmas week. We were shocked, amazed, grateful, cautious, happy etc etc etc. After a first great beta of 319 @ 15dpIUI we decided we would tell our family. We know that the road is long and whatever may be may be and thought that IF anything happened to our precious baby bear, we wanted all the support we could get. So we told them.
My mom was first on X mas eve. She received a silver frame that said " When a child is born, so is a Grandmother" I also added my own little poem that said
Dear Grandma,
Roses are Red
Violets are Blue
In August 2011
Ill be seeing
YOU!
Her initial response was a mirage of "O MY GOD O MY GOD O MY GOD" mixed in with tears.
Next C's family found out on Christmas. We purchased a frame that said Nana on it for C's grandmother and wrote on the paper inside
Great Grandchild #14 Coming in August 2011
As for C's parents, they got this little onsie.
The week we found out
Was also christmas week. We were shocked, amazed, grateful, cautious, happy etc etc etc. After a first great beta of 319 @ 15dpIUI we decided we would tell our family. We know that the road is long and whatever may be may be and thought that IF anything happened to our precious baby bear, we wanted all the support we could get. So we told them.
My mom was first on X mas eve. She received a silver frame that said " When a child is born, so is a Grandmother" I also added my own little poem that said
Dear Grandma,
Roses are Red
Violets are Blue
In August 2011
Ill be seeing
YOU!
Her initial response was a mirage of "O MY GOD O MY GOD O MY GOD" mixed in with tears.
Next C's family found out on Christmas. We purchased a frame that said Nana on it for C's grandmother and wrote on the paper inside
Great Grandchild #14 Coming in August 2011
As for C's parents, they got this little onsie.
At first they didn't get it. They thought it was for my sister in laws baby who was just born. Until C said it wasn't for him that they got it. We got a lot of hugs and congrats and that they would all like a girl. =)
I finally got my second beta back from yesterdays blood work. It came back as 2221! Whooo hoo!
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Its time..
On Sunday night I told C that my plan had been to wait until Wednesday to test here at home and then get a beta done. Well I realized that IF AF was on her way, the progesterone was stopping her a bit and she would be late any way. So I said " Im going to test Monday morning and see what happens"..
Monday Morning
I get up out of bed, one eye open and grab the pee stick. I stumble into the bathroom, pee on it and set it on the back part of the counter and start my timer. I proceed to wash my face, do my hair and then look down at the timer. O its been 3 1/2 mins, I can look. Before I looked at the stick I braced my self for what I was so accustomed to, nothing. I took a few deep breathes and grabbed the stick.....
2.PINK.LINES.HOLY.SHIT.IM.PREGNANT!
I started to shake and cry. Who knew that a second pink line could do all that to a person. Who knew that the second pink line would make me feel like I never had before. I had no idea what to do. So I run to the room pick up the phone and call C. The convo went like this.
" Hi baby what are you doing?" Mind you I sound like im crying
"Nothing just throwing some stuff away"
"Umm..baby...we did it"
"What?"
"Im pregnant!"
"NICE!!!" She said something after that but for the life of me I can not remember.
So on my lunch on Monday I went in to have the blood work done. They were supposed to do an inital test and if it came back positive ( which it did) they were to run to get #'s. They didnt. So I had to go in on Wednesday for MORE blood work and got the numbers this morning.
319 baby! RN said numbers look great and I got the run down of what I can eat and drink. No tap water, no king swordfish, only some tuna and all the meat I want. (Yuck!) I go in tomorrow for another beta and get results on Monday. Also we should have our first ultrasound on either Thursday or Friday to hopefully see the baby bears heartbeat. We are still in disbelief.
** To My In real life friends. Please please please please please do not say anything on FB. You may text me if youd like. We are not out of the woods yet and will not be telling everyone until late Feb. Thanks!**
Monday Morning
I get up out of bed, one eye open and grab the pee stick. I stumble into the bathroom, pee on it and set it on the back part of the counter and start my timer. I proceed to wash my face, do my hair and then look down at the timer. O its been 3 1/2 mins, I can look. Before I looked at the stick I braced my self for what I was so accustomed to, nothing. I took a few deep breathes and grabbed the stick.....
2.PINK.LINES.HOLY.SHIT.IM.PREGNANT!
I started to shake and cry. Who knew that a second pink line could do all that to a person. Who knew that the second pink line would make me feel like I never had before. I had no idea what to do. So I run to the room pick up the phone and call C. The convo went like this.
" Hi baby what are you doing?" Mind you I sound like im crying
"Nothing just throwing some stuff away"
"Umm..baby...we did it"
"What?"
"Im pregnant!"
"NICE!!!" She said something after that but for the life of me I can not remember.
So on my lunch on Monday I went in to have the blood work done. They were supposed to do an inital test and if it came back positive ( which it did) they were to run to get #'s. They didnt. So I had to go in on Wednesday for MORE blood work and got the numbers this morning.
319 baby! RN said numbers look great and I got the run down of what I can eat and drink. No tap water, no king swordfish, only some tuna and all the meat I want. (Yuck!) I go in tomorrow for another beta and get results on Monday. Also we should have our first ultrasound on either Thursday or Friday to hopefully see the baby bears heartbeat. We are still in disbelief.
** To My In real life friends. Please please please please please do not say anything on FB. You may text me if youd like. We are not out of the woods yet and will not be telling everyone until late Feb. Thanks!**
Sunday, December 19, 2010
13 dpIUI
Snappy, Snarky, bitchy and Pissed Off. No apparent reason just feel annoyed with people. Everyday with no sign of AF is a good day though, even if I think this bitchyness is from PMS. I still have the sharp pain every once in a while and I have to wash my face 2x to get the oil off, thanks Progesterone I really appreciate it.
12 dpIUI
Cramping but feels different sort of in my cervix, semi sharp and only lasts for a quick second. I've also noticed that my face is so oily(yuck) and I have so much ear wax (double yuck!). Nausea this morning but I think its from all the OJ ive been drinking. I cant believe its already 13 dpIUI!
Friday, December 17, 2010
10 & 11 dpIUI
It was nothing new. Same random cramping and a bit of the SVP. Although the last 2 days I have noticed an increase in Watery CM and today EWCM. Not sure if that is a s/e of the prog sups. or not...
Thursday, December 16, 2010
9 dpIUI and A new baby in the family
I dont even really remember yesterday. It was such a jumble of things and in the end we found our selves in the hospital waiting for our godson to be born. I do remember I had some cramping and started to get the SVP pain again but other then that, I cant remember.
I will post pictures of the little 7lb1oz 18in man in a few days. He is just precious...
I will post pictures of the little 7lb1oz 18in man in a few days. He is just precious...
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
8 dpIUI
I hate life. See below post. I have gas, my stomach has cramps and the million sit up pains, im tired and I noticed that I am breaking out like a teenager =(
I hate Progesterone! Hate it Hate it Hate it!
Ive also noticed that last time I had weird pains, The SVP (Shooting Vagina Pain) and this time its the MSUP, Million Sit Up Pain.
I can't wait to go to sleep tonight.
I hate Progesterone! Hate it Hate it Hate it!
Ive also noticed that last time I had weird pains, The SVP (Shooting Vagina Pain) and this time its the MSUP, Million Sit Up Pain.
I can't wait to go to sleep tonight.
Definition
Im not sure what it is or even where it started. Today, melancholy is how im feeling. My mind is being sent in so many different directions, im not sure it really knows how to feel.
Work-
Work is well work. Stressful but always fun. I spend my morning marveling over the children in my classroom who could play UNO for hours if I let them and who for the first time yesterday were given screws and screw drivers to investigate. They loved it. But so much of work is relationship based that when im having a sad day or an off day or a I-dont-feel-well-but-cant-really-tell-anyone-why kind of day, I wish I could stay home.
Cycle-
The last IUI and now progesterone supps. have really sent me on a ride. The prog. sups. make me tired beyond belif and I sometimes think I may not make it though the day. The constant cramps ( ok not constant but they have yet to go away) and now the ijustdid1millionsitup's feeling to add to all of this. My back has been bothering me making it a bit hard to sleep and get comfortable. So there I am in bed, tired, cranky and cant fall asleep for the life of me. Feeling sad that C cant be there with me most of the time made me cry the other night, I feel asleep with tears streaming down my face. It was bad night.
Godson-
I can not wait to meet this little bundle of joy in the next week. When I think about it, it makes my eyes well up with tears. Im not sure if the tears are happy tears or half happy half sad its not me. Either way, awaiting his entrence into the world is exciting but also taking an emotional toll on me.
Monday, December 13, 2010
7 dpIUI
What a doozy! I called RE this morning to tell them that since my P4 levels were low I started the Progesterone Supps. but needed more. I was tired all day and could not wait to get home to rest! Some cramping but again mainly when I am in the car or just sitting. My back started hurting last night and it was a little uncomfortable. I think its from picking up the nephew, who is not light at all! Today also in my lower abdomen it feels like I have done a million sit ups! Not sure what that is about.
This 2ww feels short and honestly, I have not been thinking much about it. I try not to look into the phantom symptoms but my hope is still for a bfp
This 2ww feels short and honestly, I have not been thinking much about it. I try not to look into the phantom symptoms but my hope is still for a bfp
Never did I think
** Warning. This post contains the words vagina and dildo. Please note that you have been warned.**
Never in my life did I think I would be shoving huge pills up my vagina, inviting the dildo cam in with joy, having such a love/hate relationship with AF, popping more pills then I ever thought and caring about hormone levels. The joys of trying to make a baby!
Never in my life did I think I would be shoving huge pills up my vagina, inviting the dildo cam in with joy, having such a love/hate relationship with AF, popping more pills then I ever thought and caring about hormone levels. The joys of trying to make a baby!
Sunday, December 12, 2010
5 & 6 dpIUI
5 dpIUI-Saturday Dec. 11
A bit of cramping, a bit of heartburn. Had my P4 levels taken.
6 dpIUI-Today
Had an easy day and got to sleep in, finally! Got the levels from yesterday and decided to take the Progesterone Supps. that I have until I talk to RE tomorrow. Im 99% sure they will want me on them until I get beta done.
A bit of cramping, a bit of heartburn. Had my P4 levels taken.
6 dpIUI-Today
Had an easy day and got to sleep in, finally! Got the levels from yesterday and decided to take the Progesterone Supps. that I have until I talk to RE tomorrow. Im 99% sure they will want me on them until I get beta done.
Progesterone Levels back
7.8
Im not thrilled but its better then 5 or 2. I have a feeling that I am going to be going on Progesterone Supps. starting this week. I am going to take one tonight for good measure and then call RE office tomorrow morning.
Im not thrilled but its better then 5 or 2. I have a feeling that I am going to be going on Progesterone Supps. starting this week. I am going to take one tonight for good measure and then call RE office tomorrow morning.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Blood work this morning
The plan is to drop C off at G-Ma's house so she can start making tamales with the family. I on the other hand will be taking my happy self to Kaiser to get blood drawn. We are checking to make sure I O'd and want a number OVER 10! Numbers have never been so important to me in my life!
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