The morning is upon us...

OLD POST FROM JUNE 29, 09-Somehow didn't get posted

I woke up this morning like a 5 year old on christmas. Excited to get up and see what our first fertility consultation will bring. I am both excited but nervous. For some reason I am obsessed with the fact that we will come off to young to this doctor, but honestly what does it matter to me.

To put me at ease, I looked up our doctor on the Kaiser website last night. Before the photo popped up it said "Male", huh? I was assuming that our fertility doctor would be a woman. After the little shock, it felt okay.

I currently feel like i am going to vomit all over the keyboard.

The past few days all i have are images of us with a baby or me pregnant and C dragging me around the mall. We have begun to plan our next year of life around making a baby. Since San Francisco Pride was this past weekend both C and I expressed our want to go to Los Angeles pride next year " If im pregnant by then maybe we can go, but if im not and we go during the time we need to inseminate , i dont want us to go any where." I also start to think of things in terms of how would we do this when we have a baby. Like Sunday, all of the women in C's family including us went to a movie and lunch, my mom was invited but did not attend. So i began thinking, how would we go when we have a baby, i guess my mom could watch the baby since there would be no one else, or we would not be going.

I have begun to more indulge my self in the Lesbian Pregnancy books we have, reading over each chapter a few times so I know what it is saying. No matter how much I read in books or on the internet, this is the morning that will start it all off. This is the morning that we will look back on when I am laying in a hospital waiting to give birth to our wonderfully loved and waited for baby. I hope that when our child grows up they know how much they were planned for and wanted and dreamed about every night for months and months and maybe even years, I hope they know how much love we had for them even before they were born ( heck, even before they were conceived!)

Our apt. is at 9:00am and it will be an hour long, I then have to be at work by 10:30 am. I will post an update on my lunch today...

In Process: Step 1.0

A women called yesterday from the "fertility clinic" yesterday but i missed her call. I called this morning before we left the house. When I got a hold of her she said that she would schedule us for an hour long consultation on June 29 at 3:00pm. Great! Wait..not great. At work we have 2 people currently out on maternity leave and 2 more going soon, so needless to say taking any vacation between now and December is not really going to happen. ( Good thing we wont start trying for baby until after the new year!)

I had to call the clinic back later this morning to see if she had any thing earlier, she did, at 9:00am on the same day, do-able, i just wont get a lunch that day. 

So we are both very excited to get going on the right track!

Horah!

Step 0.5

Today came sooner then I thought it would. It was our first visit to the OB to talk about having a baby. 

She did the regular pelvic exam etc etc. She then talked to us about the blood test she wanted to have done for all my hormones and to find out why my period is irregular. 

She also sent over a request to the Infertility Clinic for a consultation. So now we wait again for the people at that office to call, Im lucky that they are open on Saturday's and Sunday.