Much about nothing

Nothing new is going on in the home front of baby making, well, except one thing. Last week I emailed by doctor on CD 39 and explained what was going on. I said that we would not be trying again until June but wanted to know what to do about the current long cycle. He gave me two options-

1- I could take the pregnancy test he put online for me and then take Provera ( O horah bring on the hot flashes!)

or

2- I could wait until Mid may- take the Provera and then the cycle that starts after that, would be the cycle we would try.

I talked to C about and talked about it and she says that it is up to me what we do. She says its my body, shes right. But im still not sure what to do.

I have been so melancholy lately and have no idea why. Its one of those feelings that you just cant shake. The only time I am really happy is when its just me and C, no one else.

And again, I SUCK at loosing weight..but that's not new.