Spermcicle's

81 million to be exact!

Just ordered our vial for this cycle.

 81mil post was with 53% motility

Sick

I fought it and fought it but alas I am sick.

C and I went to the Raider game today ( Let's NOT talk about that huge disappointment!) and came home around 4. I had no intention of falling asleep with C but I did. Then I wake up around 9, unable to breath, throat hurting and runny nose. So out of bed I went and plopped myself in the spare room with a drink, my laptop and blanket. I plan to stay here until C goes off to work in about an hour, then attempt to go back to sleep.


The bleeding stopped, that goodness. To be honest I was very worried that I was ovulating

( You can stop laughing now)

Then I snapped back into reality, after the OPK came back - that is. Silly me...

The dull achy cramps are on and off and were a bit uncomfortable last night, im hoping that means something is cooking in there!

O and tomorrow, we buy the vial for this cycle! Horah for spermcicles!

F.A.Q's

Even if you have never left me a comment, even if you are just a random lurker on my blog, if you are a friend, a family member it doesn't matter. I have had many questions come up about Lesbian Conception and all that it entails. Nothing is off limits so ask away. I want to add them to my F.A.Q Section as well.

So come on...ask!

Christmas came early..No im not KU

This morning when C got off work she called me and said she was going to go Christmas Shopping for me. So I sent her my very detailed list. She hung out at her mom's for a long time and then told me she was on her way home.

When she got home I was watching The Great Sperm Race ( very interesting!) She came in and said " So i got you something but I want to give it to you now" She is really bad at waiting to give gifts. Any who so she gave it to me and it was a Silver Flip Camera! SCORE! I have been wanting one so bad, Thanks babe!

Today is CD 10 and I have been having some cramping on the left side as well as cramps in general. This morning I had breakthrough bleeding which I cant really find any information on. If it continues I may call RE on Monday and see what they have to say. Our mid cycle CD 15 Follicle scan is on Thursday and im really nervous. I am hoping and praying that the Femara is working wonders and gives us a few nice size follies on CD 15.

Almost there!

With *only* 2.5 days left of work, I could not be happier! Last night C and I made a run to Target, initially to get hairspray, but C is attracted to Christmas Decorations like a fly to honey, so we ventured over to take a look. I for some reason was very excited about the wrapping paper, nifty tape dispensers and cutie little name tags. So, C and I gathered some up and packed them in the cart.

Now for Black Friday!  I have a Super Top Secret mighthavetokillyouifitellyouwhatsonit list that NO one can see. Except me.. but let me tell you folks, there is some *Gooood* stuff on there!

Now onto the Baby Making
The last few days I have been having some Major heartburn at night. I have added an antacid to my nightly pill regiment and it seems to help. Today though my stomach has been extremely insane! Its either the med's, or im getting the flu. This morning my stomach was sounding not to happy, so I had a granola bar and a plum. About an hour or so later I was rushing into the bathroom ( Ill spare you the details). I just had some lunch with the kids ( BTW, Mustard Maple Chicken is SO good!) and now my stomach sounds like it is either going to A) Send me into the bathroom again or B) Burst out of my stomach onto my laptop.

 Let's hope neither happens.


I am happy to say that there have been no major Side Effects with the Femara and things seem to be going smoothly, wait, I lied. Last night there was some pains on my left side, down where my left ovary hides it self. It went on for a while, until I took 600mg meds, which seemed to help.

Some days I feel like a hypochondriac

Femara

Started Femara last night and the suckers are small! I mean tiny little pills that slipped out of my hands and onto the floor. Which sent me into a panic searching on the floor and telling C " Dont move! One fell on the bed!"

All seems to be going well, except that AF cant decide if she is leaving or staying a few more days. Then add in the cramps and it looks like she will stay a few more days.

I have already been thinking about " if this time works, when could we tell people!" I NEED to stop!

"My, people come and go so quickly here!"

Dorothy said it best when visiting Oz, things happen so quickly!

While I cant compare Dorothy's visit to Oz to our road of IF, I understand what she means! In the world of baby making its either, nothing is going on or its *all* going on. Today I finally called RE's office to find out what they consider CD1. The nurse on the phone said that if there is any brown at all, they dont count that as CD 1. So under that "No Brown Rule" I am currently on CD 2 and start the Femara tomorrow. See told ya it goes fast. In fact the day has gone by so fast I forgot to tell C that we have an U/S apt. on Dec. 2 @ 9:40am. Oppss! When I finally arrived at the Pharmacy and told them what I was there for, I was informed that the HCG trigger is now considered a controlled substance and I would have to sign for it. 

In other news around the house...

The weekend shall be filled with a cartoon watching, cereal eating, movie going and small pajama wearing  4 year old, The Boy as we call him. 

"I am your Hero right J?" He asked me tonight, " Yes, you are my Hero!" I told him

He is visiting this weekend and I can currently hear him conversing with C in "his room" the spare room with his stuff in it, about Spiderman and all other sorts of Super Hero's. C answers his questions with sort of a yes but more of a grunt, to which he continues to talk.

Here's to a great weekend!

A plee

I feel what I think may be cramps. Please O please o Please AF, hold off until at least..this weekend!

Crunch Time

So I am done with the Provera and let me tell you (which most of you readers know this) the Hot Flashes are KILLING me this time around! Geeze! C has been good about it, helping me out by opening the window or turning on the AC full blast for a few moments. What can I say, she's awesome. I've been slacking on taking my Metformin and prenatal, I know I know, I need to take them! The planning for this cycle is somewhat messed up. I got a bouns at work and we thought "Awesome! $$ for spermcicles, meds, ultrasounds and the IUI.!" and (although stupid on our parts) sort of stopped saving a bit. Then I realized that I wont get the money until the 27th, well that may be to late  =(
If it is, we will wait until next month. Let's hope AF is a tad overdue..


A few weeks ago C's Aunt called to invite us to a (dun dun dun) Baby Shower for her husbands niece. C asked me about going and said "I wanted to ask you first, I know how you feel sometimes about baby showers and such." I told her it was fine and that we could go. The baby shower was about an hour away so we went up Saturday night to Sacramento and went shopping in town with her aunt. With all the over exposure to baby items lately I feel like a pro walking into Target, Baby Registry in hand, find what I need and get out. Well not this time. The printers and computers in Target were down which meant we were unable to print the registry.

So there we are in the baby section trying to read the registry off of C's phone, which was NOT easy.  I was starting to feel a bit overwhelmed, plus there was a very pregnant women, her small child and like 5 other adults in her party making her registry. ::sigh::..

So we got the lamest gift ever.
Diapers and Wipes
(although the Mommy is having twins and said all the diapers she got were "Awesome")

I made it thought the actual baby shower and actually (gulp) had F.U.N! I won a game and enjoyed talking with other people.

I did get the question "So when are you two having children?" and still, Im not sure how to answer. I still dont have a "good" answer. I dont even know what I said. I think for the most part I stumble though the question and say something like "hopefully soon" and change the subject.

What can I say, we are indecisive

After a long talk and cry C and I have decided to join the bandwagon again, exactly 14 months earlier then planned. We said we would plan our wedding and did start to. Then the prices started to roll in and C said

"For this we could try 6 times for a baby!" 

I cried like normal but then got a *twinge* of excitement!

So, I made the call to RE, got the blood work done for Provera (To which C said, what would you do if it came back and you were pregnant?!) and started it. We are currently 3 days into Provera. The Femara and HCG trigger have been ordered and like normal, I call RE on CD 1.

For those of you who read this and are friends In Real Life or are on my FB, **please please please** dont say anything. I have decided not to tell ANYONE at this point and would rather fight this battle, this time, just C and I.