I wanted her here but man

We waited and waited and waited for AF to arrive and now that she's here its a bummer. Im not sure if it was the Provera or what but I have had such bad cramps the last few days, it wakes me up at night. So i went and bought Midol today ( now that I think of it i havnt taken any...whoops!) C is helping my FIL put in a new kitchen so we are staying here tonight.

I called the RE yesterday to tell them that my cycle had started and we scheduled a Baseline Scan for Monday at 3:40pm. So I will be off work at 2:30 and C and I will be on our way to the DR. I hope it all goes well so that the DR will put me on my meds and we can be on our way to TTC #1!!!

She's here..

AF showed up this evening, Thanksgiving of all days. We were getting ready for our second dinner at our house and there she was. Light still ( began about 2 hours ago) and the bad thing is that we are going shopping tonight! The first day of every cycle is possibly the start of a pregnancy...we will see

Popping Pills

I couldn't think of a better name for this post, anyway. This month is the start of our TTC so we waited for AF and waited and then I could not wait any longer. I emailed our RE and told him the trouble, I was sent for a Pregnancy Test ( which we all knew was negative) and then was put on Provera for 10 days. Im hoping that AF shows...

More waiting

OMG OMG OMG

So the first 2 vials are ordered!!!!!

Its so close!!!!!!!!

Sperm Shortage

So I was looking over the Semen order form from our SB the other day and noticed that it said that they advise you to call one month in advance to make sure that your donor is still available and all that jazz. I didn't really think any thing of it but decided yesterday to give them a call. So i call them up and they are always so nice and asked about our D and the women said " hold on let me check" she comes back and says " He has 4 vials available, 2 washed (which is what we need) and 2 raw (that just sounds gross). I told her our situation and she then explained that he will be going in for a blood test (procedure) and once his blood is cleared again he can then come in to "release" but that he wont have any more washed vials but these 2 until December. That's to late for us! We need those 2 now! So lucky us we have lots of money saved and on Friday we will be buying our first 2 vials of D's hopefully strong swimmers.

On the other hand the Semen Order Form has to have my RE's signature. So now we are scrambling to get him to sign it and get it back to us by tomorrow so that we can pay for these 2 before someone snatches them up! I have faith that no one will but also wonder what we will do if there is. I suppose we could always buy the 2 raw vials and have them washed at the RE office.

Its always something in the land o' baby makin

Good Times

A few weeks back, C, her 3 year old nephew and I were browsing through Pottery Barn Kids when we came across this book..

Its filled with lists of what you will NEED before the baby comes. It has suggestions of how many to buy ( like washcloths, onsies etc). It has price ranges for things like strollers etc. We both loved it but didn't buy it. So yesterday we had to go to the mall to get C a new iPod and we stopped in Pottery Barn Kids to buy the book! Then to top it off, that morning before we had left my mom had come home from a garage sale across the street. She came in and said " I found you something you might like". It was What to Expect when your expecting and The EVERYTHING pregnancy book ( I think thats what its called) Any way she bought them both for 50 cents! I thanked her and told her that that was a wonderful price, being that just one book is like 15 dollars at the store!

Plus, On Friday night I found out that the company I work for is giving us a bonus of 1k! The money comes at an amazing time and helps alot!

Donor Chosen!

Im not sure why I waited so long to post an update about the donor information. Any way it came the day after my last post ( So, Sept. 10, 09). It had 1 baby photo and 2- 20 page medical information on 2 donors. C and I sat in our room and read them of to each-other. After each section we talked about what we liked and disliked about the information and moved on. At the end it was clear who our choice would be. The donor we did not pick had various serious medical conditions in his family. Thanks, but no thanks. So we marveled over the baby photo ( it is more like a toddler photo) of the donor we chose. We were happy, content and excited!

So now weeks after we have chosen we have begun to look at various baby items. We went to a toy store to look for a game and ended up in the baby section looking at car seats and strollers(!!). We have looked at cribs on line ( and one in the store on accident!). C asked the other day if when im pregnant if I will be able to help paint the room. So i looked into it and as long as the paint has low to no VOC'S its safe. Lucky for us the paint C wants to use is the Arm and Hammer paint which has NO VOC'S! The room that will be the baby room currently has red trim so we will primer it and then paint it and the ceiling.

Not much to think about in the next 2 months- except for keeping healthy and keeping the weight off slowly and in a healthy manner.

Sick & Waiting

I stayed home yesterday and today due to flu like symptoms. It was pretty bad yesterday but thankfully I feel better today and will return to work tomorrow.

This past weekend was C and my 4 year anniversary of being together. We were at her Aunts house out near Sacramento, house and dog sitting. She made me breakfast ( eggs and ham, plus blueberry pancakes!!!) It was nice to have a quiet weekend.

On Friday I paid the registration fee to the SB($100) plus ordered medical forms for 2 donors and the one baby photo the 1 donor had ($55). I was hoping it would come yesterday being that we are only 30 mins away from the SB but it didn't, so im in the living room waiting for todays mail to come, although i have a feeling it wont come today either! That is what I hate about ordering things, I can not wait for it to come but it never comes on time or when I want it to!

The other night I had gone to the bathroom and when i came back into the room C was on the computer. As i climb back into bed she says " so..." I thought for sure she was going to say something about the Beetles Rock Band that she has been wanting (which i finally let her get) but she said " I was looking at these cribs..." What! your looking at what! Now dont get be wrong she is so excited to start trying for our little one but I never thought she would say that. So we laid in bed and looked at cribs for a bit. I would much rather buy one in the store being that I hate waiting!

C's grandmother called this morning to see where she has been. C goes over every day and takes her places etc. C told her I was sick and so she was staying home with me " Are we pregnant?" Her grandmother asked C told her No to which her grandmother replied " I thought i was going to get to go to the store and buy blankets and pajamas and bottles and onsies"

See Baby, you have not even been conceived and already people are awaiting your arrival.

A dream is a wish your heart makes..

So I sent in our SB registration papers on Monday and called the SB today to pay for the fee. Plus I ordered the 2 donor history papers and one of the donors has a baby photo, so we ordered that too! They come in the mail ( bummer!) so they should be here early next week. Lucky us the SB is about 30 minutes up the freeway.

I had a baby dream last night. C and I were in our room packing baby clothes to go to the hospital, im guessing that we didn't know what we were having so i was packing 2 of everything. I packed these terry cloth footy pajamas, one in blue and white and the other in pink and grey, diapers, 2 pairs of socks, hats, blankets. The funny this is i was packing this all in

this very large duffle bag we own. It was very real, with my very big belly in the dream..

Papers sent-Check!

So a few months ago C and I decided not to send in the papers to the SB quite yet. Since we will not be TTC in November now I feel like we are behind track! But its okay...I sent the papers in this morning and will call on Friday to pay the registration fee of $100!

On another note our RE emailed me and said it would be fine to start in November instead of Sept. for baby.

Next step.. buy our first vile from SB!

Movin it up

We had our follow up appointment on Wednesday morning. It was only 30 mins. long and we got tons of information.

The first good thing is that i've lost 7.5 pounds!!!!! I was telling C that I didn't think I had lost any weight at all and in fact thought I may have gained some, but to my surprise I didn't! Dr. A. explained that all of my labs came back good and the only thing to keep working on was the weight a bit. He made our plan which will consist of

3 cycles with Metformin & Clomid

If im not pregnant within those 3 months then

3 more cycles with Metformin & injections

IF im still not pregnant after that then we will re-discuss an HSG..

O and did I mention that we will no longer wait until Jan. 2010 but now we will start in NOVEMBER!!!!!!

C and I are both very excited and cant wait.

We many time talk about our un-conceived unborn child as if they are already here.

We love you already little baby, there are so many people who anticipate you already.

Drained

I dont know what it is but im feeling very drained. We have not even started TTC but already I feel stressed. Maybe it is due to the fact that my classroom at work is in shambles as we start to move to a new classroom. Things are all over the room, rugs are not in there etc etc. Nothing is on the walls and it doesn't feel like my classroom at all. Hopefully after the move things will get better.

It could also be the hormonal switch from CD 1-11 and on, who knows.

HSG

When I called the RE on Monday to schedule my HSG she told me that as long as I was not having a heavy flow on the day of my HSG they would do it.

So C and I go in yesterday and I go to have it done. The Dr. who did the procedure did not explain any thing to me, I had no idea what was going on and when I asked the nurse she said " He is getting you ready", They then called in another Dr to take the x-rays and I was still not informed of what or when they were doing. They injected the dye without telling me and I flinched from the cramping. The catheter came out at the Dr said we would need to reschedule because there was still blood in my uterus. After I get off of the table the Dr looks at me and says " Well i hope you didn't pay to much for this" to which I reply " yes I did, it was almost $200!" I got a refund at the end. DW and i talked on the way home and she expressed that she was unsure as to why I needed one done in the first place. We read that HSG's are usually a common things for women undergoing fertility treatment to rule out complication in the uterus and tubes or women who have had miscarriages. We personally dont feel that it is necessary for us at this time and e-mailed our Dr last night.

When our Dr emailed back he said that it was not necessary and that we could speak more at our follow up apt.

I am relieved at this point but still know that it may be looming again in the future..and it hurt!

Down the hatch

1 Doxycycline

3 Advil

and 1 prenatal last night...

Is this was TTC is? Shoving down pills of all sizes and colors?! Hmmm....

Yucky Day so far...

I had to take the Doxycycline this morning as part of the HSG requirements. I took it when I was at work and planned to eat a little something about an hour after. Well i decided that orange juice was the best thing so i drank some and then saw it again about 5 mins late...yuck!

Unfortunately we have a flu bug going around the center so i had to tell my boss, yes i threw up but no im not sick, just the meds.

Ahhh a flu bug!

Hopefully my HSG goes okay and we get good news that my tubes are not blocked. Will post when we get home from the HSG.

Jordan Baby

It has been a quiet Sunday. Usually we spend the day at C’s grandmothers with some of C’s family and have dinner; today her grandma had something else to do.

Yesterday we went to S.F and spent the day at the pier with my In-Laws, SIL, BIL and our nephew. Later that day we ended up in NikeTown SF. Now let me just say that stating that C is addicted to shoes (Jordan’s) is an understatement, im not sure how much more someone could love an inanimate object then she does, but any way. So there we are in the children’s section of NikeTown and im on the phone with my FIL, filing him in on the tour that we took and letting him know when we would be coming over later that night. So i'm midsentence when C opens up what looks like a Nike lunch box, but inside were black and red children’s Jordan’s shoes. Now ordinarily she would ask if we could buy them for our nephew who has up until our TTC journey has started, has been spoiled by us (The child’s first pair of shoes were Jordan’s, he would get 1-2 new pairs of Jordan’s bought by us for him a month) but C turns to me and says “ Can, Can, can we buy them..For us?” Coming to grips with the fact that we can look at baby things and children’s things and have them possibly be fore us still shocks me. I told her I loved them but no..Later maybe…

After arriving home from our trip we gathered our clothes and such and went to the in-laws house to spend the night. Before we get there I asked C “ Do you care if your parents know we are going to try for baby?” She says “ It doesn’t really mater to me who knows, I know you hate it when I say that but I don’t really”, So when we go to their house, we told them. Uneventfully and right out of the car I tell my MIL “ C is scared to tell you that we are going to have a baby, I mean not now but we are going to try for one in Jan.” She was shocked but that was the end of that. I think there are a lot of questions people in our family about how we will go about getting our little bundle of joy but they are scared to ask.

Back to today. So C is gone with her brother and im here at home, no one is here and its quiet. So I read and finished my book FINALLY!

1 more to finnish and 2 more to go through and take important info out of..

Tomorrow is my HSG. The women at the RE office told me that they will not perform it if I have a heavy flow but if im spotting they will. So I have to wait a few more hours to decide if im going to take the medicine I need to for tomorrow, I should just call the RE office. I don’t want to reschedule it but im afraid I will have to….grrr

Damn you

Sprinkles Cupcakes! It was one of my kids birthdays at work and her mom brought in Sprinkles cupcakes....FYI- They do not help when you are trying to loose 8 pounds for baby!

But they are so yummy!

The sum of our life

Lets see where to begin....

I finally scheduled my HSG for this upcoming Monday. I had to go today to take a pregnancy test (I wish I was!) and then Monday afternoon we go in. Im sad that C cant go in with me for the HSG but Im sure I will make it through just fine. I told C that after Monday I will call the RE to make our next apt. with our fertility DR. to see what steps are next. C is not all that into the DR apts and the lab work and could care less about it all and honestly, so could I.

We have yet to send in our paper work for the SB. Im not procrastinating I just cant seem to find a fax machine that works, then again im not trying that hard. We are in no real rush yet to send in the paper work just yet. I suppose after the DR. tells us what will happen next, we will have more of an idea as to when we should be sending the paper work in and deciding on donors.

After posting on thenest.com we talked about buying 3 vials from one donor. If after 3 months we are not pregnant from that donor, we will switch donors. Which will ease up on the savings before the New Year. Our initial plan for baby was to save 4-5,000 to spend on all the vials we would need, I didn’t think about what would happen if we needed or wanted to switch donors. Today when I told C about it she said “ didn’t I say that in the beginning?” She is ultimately always right!

We are so excited to start trying for baby and can hardly wait to find out what next steps are needed.

Guess who else caught baby fever? C’s sister. My SIL currently has one son whom C and I love very much. C spent most of the first 2 years of his life with him and we see him many times a week, he’s an awesome little guy (You got ants up your nose bay-bay?”) Anyway, my SIL and her husband said they are going to start trying for a new baby about the same time we are…

As for the 8 pounds I need to loose..Im not sure how Im doing. We don’t have a scale but I have been watching what I eat and have been drinking lots of water. Taking the stairs only etc etc, Small steps. I really need to use the gym at work, but using the gym at night means more time away from C and I hate that! We will figure something out..

O Baby, while your not even conceived yet we hope you know how much you are wanted and will be loved. Please find your way to us...

Where O Where can a Baby Book be

For some reason I decided that the first thing we need to buy is a baby book. We are not due to start trying for our baby until the new year but I cant help but want to buy things early.

We both searched around online last night and only found 1 website that had a 2 mommies baby book ( I always tell C she can find a polar bear in a snow storm and demanded she find a better and cheaper ( the first one was $132) baby book for us!) She looked and I looked and were not really happy with what we found. So i posted on thenest.com, I used theknot.com before we got married and got good ideas from it. So any way I posted there and got some responses and found a perfect book for us, plus with the 3 package inserts its only $84!

Isn't it beautiful...

I not sure if im loosing weight but I better be! Other then last night when I had pizza and soda, I dont drink ( Again except for last night!) Im getting tired of eating the same ole veggies but I need to have more options other than corn, peas, green beans, asparagus, broccoli and carrots.

and really we need to start taking walks again!

I have met a vampire...And he works at my local Kaiser

I had this past Monday off work (to recover from our horrible camping trip). We decided to get some of my blood work done that day and to also do my test for Diabetes. I was under the assumption that I would go, give blood, drink the nasty liquid, be on my way and come back in 2 hours...boy was I wrong. I had to stay at the hospital for the 2 hours. So we sat around, read magazines, i went to the bathroom about 8 times"(thanks to the 2 bottles of water and 75 grams of sugar water i had to drink) then it was my time to give more blood. In I went and the vampire took another 2 things of blood and we were off.

Now I just have to wait to take the Provera...

What is Provera you ask....

Provera is derived from the female hormone progesterone. You may be given Provera if your menstrual periods have stopped or a female hormone imbalance is causing your uterus to bleed abnormally. Provera is also prescribed to prevent abnormal growth of the uterine lining in women taking estrogen replacement therapy.

Then I can have my HSG

What is an HSG you ask

A hysterosalpingogram, or HSG is an important test of female fertility potential.

The HSG test is a radiology procedure usually done in the radiology department of a hospital (or outpatient radiology facility). Radiographic contrast (dye) is injected into the uterine cavity through the vagina and cervix. The uterine cavity fills with dye and if the fallopian tubes are open the dye will fill the tubes and spill into the abdominal cavity.

This determines if the fallopian tubes are open or blocked and whether the blockage is located at the junction of the tube and uterus (proximal) or whether it is at the other end of the fallopian tube (distal). These are the areas where the tube is most commonly blocked. Very successful treatment for tubal factor infertility is available.

What step is this?

Well our Dr. apt came and went and I didn’t blog. There was so much info in my head that I didn’t think I could get it all out in the blog, but I guess I will try.

The Dr. Apt-

The morning of our apt. we were both up early-ish to get ready. I was super nervous but ready to hear what the Dr had to say. We got there and were greeted by the receptionist who was nice and calmed me down a bit. I filled out some paper work and grabbed a folder with tons of into in it. The secretary gave us a breakdown of the cost and what we would be paying. C looked that over while I filled out the paper work and had her sign her portion.

My name was finally called and we went in. They took my blood pressure (It was high, I told the nurse I was very nervous and that my blood pressure had always been normal, she said “ I believe you and its okay, there is nothing to be worried about”. They weighed me (eeeek) and off we went to wait in a room until the Dr was ready to see us. We were in the small room where they do ultrasounds for about 5 mins and the nurse then came back in and escorted us to the Dr’s office. We walked in and he asked us to sit.

He started off by introducing him self and saying that first we would get my health info then we would set a plan for us. He asked the normal info about my periods and health and family health. He asked C some info about her health also. He explained that the OBGYN in our city was split up into 3. The OBGYN in the main building, Reproductive Endocrinology and then patients had their baby in another city, not to far from where we are. He talked about medicine and blood tests etc etc. He printed out our “plan” and gave me some papers to go get blood tests done on specific days. He said to call him or e-mail him if we had any questions. He also said to start taking a prenatal vitamin, any kind was fine. O, He also said I needed to loose 8 pounds. We asked him that when we did all the tests and assuming everything was fine, when did he think we could start trying for our baby. He said he didn’t see any reason to wait as long as I was healthy enough, C and I looked at each other and all we could do was smile. Our baby dreams were beginning to become a reality.

Reality Sets in-

The morning of the apt. I tried in vain I get a hold of my mother, whom we live with for reasons that are our (me, C and my mothers). I talked to her that night about what the Dr said with my mom and C. My mom seemed to be easing up on the fact that it was really going to happen.

Now…

It has been a little tough on me having to go give blood so often and be so in tune with what is going on with my body. The first few days I took the prenatal vitamins, I was so tired. No matter how much sleep I got I was still tired. Its better now and we are both very excited to start trying in Dec. or Jan!

To do-

LOOSE 8 POUNDS!

Go for more walks/bike rides

Make apt. With S.B for consultation

The morning is upon us...

OLD POST FROM JUNE 29, 09-Somehow didn't get posted

I woke up this morning like a 5 year old on christmas. Excited to get up and see what our first fertility consultation will bring. I am both excited but nervous. For some reason I am obsessed with the fact that we will come off to young to this doctor, but honestly what does it matter to me.

To put me at ease, I looked up our doctor on the Kaiser website last night. Before the photo popped up it said "Male", huh? I was assuming that our fertility doctor would be a woman. After the little shock, it felt okay.

I currently feel like i am going to vomit all over the keyboard.

The past few days all i have are images of us with a baby or me pregnant and C dragging me around the mall. We have begun to plan our next year of life around making a baby. Since San Francisco Pride was this past weekend both C and I expressed our want to go to Los Angeles pride next year " If im pregnant by then maybe we can go, but if im not and we go during the time we need to inseminate , i dont want us to go any where." I also start to think of things in terms of how would we do this when we have a baby. Like Sunday, all of the women in C's family including us went to a movie and lunch, my mom was invited but did not attend. So i began thinking, how would we go when we have a baby, i guess my mom could watch the baby since there would be no one else, or we would not be going.

I have begun to more indulge my self in the Lesbian Pregnancy books we have, reading over each chapter a few times so I know what it is saying. No matter how much I read in books or on the internet, this is the morning that will start it all off. This is the morning that we will look back on when I am laying in a hospital waiting to give birth to our wonderfully loved and waited for baby. I hope that when our child grows up they know how much they were planned for and wanted and dreamed about every night for months and months and maybe even years, I hope they know how much love we had for them even before they were born ( heck, even before they were conceived!)

Our apt. is at 9:00am and it will be an hour long, I then have to be at work by 10:30 am. I will post an update on my lunch today...

In Process: Step 1.0

A women called yesterday from the "fertility clinic" yesterday but i missed her call. I called this morning before we left the house. When I got a hold of her she said that she would schedule us for an hour long consultation on June 29 at 3:00pm. Great! Wait..not great. At work we have 2 people currently out on maternity leave and 2 more going soon, so needless to say taking any vacation between now and December is not really going to happen. ( Good thing we wont start trying for baby until after the new year!)

I had to call the clinic back later this morning to see if she had any thing earlier, she did, at 9:00am on the same day, do-able, i just wont get a lunch that day. 

So we are both very excited to get going on the right track!

Horah!

Step 0.5

Today came sooner then I thought it would. It was our first visit to the OB to talk about having a baby. 

She did the regular pelvic exam etc etc. She then talked to us about the blood test she wanted to have done for all my hormones and to find out why my period is irregular. 

She also sent over a request to the Infertility Clinic for a consultation. So now we wait again for the people at that office to call, Im lucky that they are open on Saturday's and Sunday. 

One baby coming right up

Looking through the D catalog felt like we were ordering something today. 

On my lunch C came to visit and we sat together and went through the catalog that we got from the SB of all of their donors. I told her " Here we are picking our baby through a catalog"

On another funny note, we happened to get the phone number of a D who we were thinking of in the beginning. I had said that we dont see him often and dont really know him all that well, he's not a stranger but not a best friend. Due to some other circumstances we got his number. We wont be asking, neither of us feel comfortable asking him. Ehh o well.

Agenda-

-If we get home early enough from the In-Laws- take a walk!

-Not stress

Are we there yet?

So in the past few weeks we had rebounded from the mess that was our D. Glad we are over that. I got in contact with the S.B that we are thinking of using for paper work and such. Then last night, I stumble upon another S.B that is lesbian owned and here where we live ( Okay about 45 mins away but thats not TO far!). C and I are planning on going through their donor list tonight to choose a few who we like and deciding which S.B to go with, I wonder if my Dr could shed some light on SB's?

Last weekend I helped throw a triple baby shower! 3 of my co-workers are pregnant about 4 weeks apart, it was awesome! One of my co workers had done this thing with a needle and string to predict how may and what sex your children will be. She did mine and it said 1 boy, hmm well i plan on trying for more than 1 but it was fun!

I cant help it but look at baby items online, I wont buy any yet but boy would I like to!

 I did buy two more books, one informational on lesbian conception etc etc and another one just for good reads. I realize that I have many books that I have started but not finished. Perhaps while we wait for trying for baby I should read them =)

In the mean time I have kicked soda ( for the most part, i did have one the other day but hey), almost all sweets (almost) and have been eating better, although I am getting tired of salad. We also went on our first walk. We had said weeks ago we would start walking but didn't, but we did now! Now all we have to do is keep it up!

Agenda until next time..

-Continue to drink no soda

-take our 2nd walk

-choose various D's from the S.B

-Go to DR. apt June 1!

Checking, Checking and Checking

I know that we are far from buying sperm from the sperm bank but we have looked and have found 1 donor that we like. There was 2 but one was counted out after reading his family medical history and all of the women in his family had something wrong with their reproductive organs and had them removed,Ouch! 

I check on our "donor" to see if it still available, if it has reached its family limit or if it is gone. So much of making a baby for us depends on things we can not control.

Plus im getting sick and im tired! Wah!

Face the music

I had yet to blog and honestly it was because it meant facing the music which is now our life. We had asked D weeks ago and would chat with him once or twice a week at most.  When we asked he was not at all surprised but didn't like the restraints that would be put on his sexual life and the restrictions of donating ( using a condom with his long time girlfriend). The questions he had made us wonder and made C worry.  We decided on our own to not use D as our donor. We called and let him know and he didn't seem to mind, at least we caught this in the early stage and not in the midst of TTC.

Being that we have no male friends we have decided to use a bank. C is worried about the money being that I am the only one working right now but I told her it will be fine. It is not the route we had hoped to use but sometimes things change.  In the beginning we had one other person in mind whom we only see once MAYBE twice a year, we actually might see him Sunday but im sure no conversation will come about that would end in him letting go into a cup once a month for us, bummer. 

C found the book she wanted: Confessions of the Other Mother: Non-Biological Lesbian Moms Tell All 

I hijacked it and have yet to finish it or give it back to her, which she is being a good sport about. We really must find more books on lesbian parenting. Maybe I will use the gift cards I received for books on Amazon.

On the Agenda

-Start walking! ( We make plans to do so and never do, we must stop doing this!)

-Continue to eat healthy 

-Find a book that will better explain the charting process

-Not let this stress us out!

-Dr. Apt June 1 ( and an ultra sound to make sure there are not cysts on the baby making organs..My ovaries )

Long week

What a long week it was for me. It was Week of the Young Child and my work ( im a preschool teacher) celebrated with various activities through out the week ( petting zoo, face painting etc). Im glad the week is over. I currently have 4 co workers who are pregnant and yesterday I sat with one who let me feel her belly all over as the little one in her tummy kicked and moved about. It was excited and sad at the same time, knowing how bad C and I want that for us, soon hopefully!

However, last week we got a chance to meet up with D to talk more about the donor situation. We invited him over for dinner and then went to grab Starbucks (Yummy, however I dont drink coffee). It was a great visit and we are just waiting to hear from him again, its hard not to call and ask if he has talked to his G.F yet.

On our end I have a Dr. apt the beginning  of June to get things kick started. C has really taken to the whole mommy idea. She has found a book online she wants to get and was really upset when we went to Borders due to the fact that they had NO books on lesbian or gay parenting. There is a book store on Castro in the city that only carries books about lesbian and gay issues, like parenting. We may have to go look there soon...

On Agenda.

-Wait to hear back from D ( we need things to pass the time for this. Hopefully the weather gets better so we can start going for walks)

-Find more lesbian parenting books to buy

-Go to my Dr. apt in June

The Call is made

* A bit of history on D. I have known him since I was in 8th grade and I am now in my Mid twenties. C has known him for some years since we have been together.*

The call has been made, let me repeat the call has been made. After deciding to call D when we had some time, we made the call. The first 15 mins was catching up, the usual how are you blah blah. He actually at one point asked if we needed any thing. (Does he know?). After I had said no ( Ok so I made a little white lie, okay a big one!) We all talked and the mood during the conversation was right. We then started by saying that we "wanted to talk to him about something very.." "You want my sperm dont you?" (How did he know?!?!). I laughed knowing he was right and said " Yes, there is a lot we have to do on our end but we wanted to talk to you sooner than later". We decided to get together hopefully sometime this week, as he works grave shift at work. He said he would have to talk to someone ( g.f im guessing) about it. He said he would have to really sit down and talk to her. We are scared he will say no and then we will be back to square 1. We are hopeful being that we have known him for so long and he had a very strong friendship with us.We explained why we wanted to use a known donor also. 

I will keep my fingers crossed. 

So Excited & I just cant hide it

Today while at work we found out that a co-worker of mine just got engaged on her trip to Hawaii! How exciting!

Back to us..

I was going to call the doctor to get an appointment because well I'm just not build to wait for any thing. I bought my wedding dress early and well would be happy with starting to look or cribs early, unfortunately that's the way I am. C on the other hand could wait until we actually bring a baby home to start looking for a crib, so we balance each other out (Thank goodness). 

 Items on the agenda are-

• not to wait for the doctor to call me but to call the doctor my self 
• decide upon a time to call D 
• Start typing up our donor contract and find out more info. on the contract it self

First Post

We had started thinking of having a baby a while ago but as to if we were really serious was another story.

Now, we are serious and ready! Although some people will say that they think we are to young or "not ready" (Please when is any one ready for a little one who will change every aspect of their life?) we know our selves and our families and that is all that matters (So there!)

A while back while we were browsing through Borders, which we do more often then not. We found our selves in the parenting section ( coincidence? ) and I picked up a book all about lesbian pre conception, conception, pregnancy and birth, so, we bought it. Needless to say its almost my bible ( I'm sure C would like to throw it out some nights ). Right now here is where we are in the baby making road-

• I have to schedule a Dr apt. to get on track with my period etc.
• We may have decided upon a known donor ( Another blog for another night) but have yet to ask him yet
• We have already set our rules and such that we would like to include in our known donor contract.

It is time for bed, or to watch the news