10dpIUI

Today was better. I was not as sick feeling and the hotness ( not fever but face was feeling hot all day) has gone away. I was still tired but somehow resisted the urge to nap. Im scared that if I nap during the day I wont sleep at night. But who am I kidding at this point I could sleep all day and be fine!

The shooting vagina cramps came back today, well mainly late afternoon around 2pm. The last one I had was a little bit go while getting out of the car. I have no idea what they are and at this point im starting to think the worst ( cyst or UTI ) I was going to call RE to ask today but never made it that far.

Was nauseous at the strangest thing today..cucumbers. While I was getting the children's lunch, it involved scooping cut cucumbers into a bowl. I started to feel that "o god" feeling and then i gagged a few times. I thought to my self " Really J, really??"

Again I blame all of this on the supps. I really do. Those evil things...

9dpIUI

Today was a wash. I woke up and felt like poop. I was still so tired but drug myself to work. On the way to work I texted my co teachers and ops. manager to let them know I wasn't feeling well. I started work at 7:45. By 1:00, lunch time, I knew it was time for a nap. I went down to the kitchen and talked to my ops manager and KU co worker ( she struggled with IF for 5 years and is 8 months =) As I was talking I knew I was going to throw up. I ran to the bathroom and did just that =(

I went back to the kitchen to tells my ops manager that I gave up and would be going home ( she too struggled with IF and now has 2 beautiful Daughters via Clomid and IUI, so she  knows what is going on with me) She told me to go home and rest up.

I picked C up from my in-laws and we came home and slept. I slept from 2:15-5:00. When I woke up I was starving so I had a little something to eat and badly wanted to go back to bed, but didn't. Im scared I wont be able to sleep tonight. 

Semi gassy today, cramps like always, sluggish, fatigue, nausea, 2 episodes of vomiting, stuffy/runny nose. Cramping feels really low, not like AF cramps. From supps. im guessing. 

Im so getting sick....

8 dpIUI

Today was a ball of emotions wrapped up in wrapping called Sunday. C and I woke up and contemplated getting breakfast. Nixed that when C decided she wanted to go to the Flea Market. She called SIL, MIL, FIL BIL and other SIL to see if they wanted to go. So off we trail like one big happy family ( which we are most of the time). I told C " I don't usually eat at the flea market but i sure am looking forward to a corn dog!"

A few hours into the trip I obtain my ever sought after corn dog ( and some fries!) and was happy. C and I decided it was time to leave but not before buying some MORE Salt and Lemon Pistachio's. Let me tell you people these things are delicious, therefor I can look past the fact that they are covered in salt.

This morning I called my Mom to tell her about the shooting vagina pain (O the things this women knows about me know, I mean I know she's my mom and all but NEVER did I think I would consult her as to what to do about shooting vagina pain) She said I should call the DR and see what they say, mom's know best.

 So that I did.


 Let me tell you fellow IF'ers, never and I repeat NEVER call your OB department with questions regarding IF stuff ( REI clinic was closed in my defense or I never would have called). After explaining that I was 9dpo and 8dpIUI, (which the acronym IUI baffled them and I was asked if I meant IUD) The advise nurse has no idea was progesterone supps. were and told me to call RE tomorrow. She added in for good measure that if the pain got worse to call them back and I thought " so you mean if the pain gets worse, call you so you can tell me your not sure what it is and to take medicine that may or may not cause harm to the possible embryo growing inside me?!" I. THINK. NOT! (Logically, I know that the last part wouldn't happen but I was pissed!)

So, I have found out that when the pain happens, if I can, I should lay down. It seems to help a bit. I also think that the supps. are causing all the cramping =(

6 & 7 dpIUI

6 dpIUI-Friday Aug. 27
Cramps were pretty bad in the afternoon. I sat at talked to C for a bit and cried a bit, then took a nap. Nothing looked good to eat so I had cheese and crackers for lunch =( I did start having this strange pain that maybe I should call the dr about but I have no idea what it is, or really how to explain it. Its sort of like a cramp that starts in my ute and the shoots down toward my vag. I have no idea what it is but it hurts!


7dpIUI- Aug. 28

C and out WHOLE family went to the Raider/49er game in Oakland. In the end my niners won and it was a great day! We were out there with all of our family and friends and had some great food, like always. I can't wait for C and I to have our own little one to share that with. Cramping like always and I felt like I had to pee a little more then normal but I did have some watermelon and a bottle or 2 of water. Not looking into this as anything!

=(

These cramps are KILLING me today, im pretty much in tears, plus my damn back!

Im so glad its the weekend.

5dpIUI

I am sad tonight. Since C has been working nights, we rarely get to see each other much. By the time I get off work and go either to my Inlaws ( where she sleeps during the day because it is much closer to her work) or home, we only get a few hours together before I have to leave to come home. For 5 years I have slept next to the amazing women I call my wife. For 5 years I have woken up with her and pushed her over when she invades 99% of the bed and now that she works nights, im on my own.
     Tonight I went to my Inlaws and C and I finished the invitations fot my SIL's baby shower. C ate and we sat and talked. I knew in the back of my head I had to leave soon ( damn laundry) but I was so sad to leave her 2 hours earlier then I usually do. When I came home, I cried. =(

     Work has been pretty demanding this week ( Hell, im a preschool teacher, its always demanding!) but I feel like im doing a lot more up and down on the floor, so tonight it caught up with me and my back started hurting a bit. I have to be careful since a few years ago I threw it out and was out of work for like a week. It sucked! So I shall take it easy tonight and tomorrow, after all we have a football game to go to on Saturday, Niners ( my team) Vs. Raiders ( C's team). Our whole family plus tons of friends are going. I cant wait!

     I told C tonight " I dont know what the lady did to my uterus but I wish these cramps would stop!" to which she replied " O I know what she did alright"...smartass! No but honestly, I think the cramps may be due to the supps. however I can't bes sure since I have never taken them before. Only time shall tell.

I also have started to lose track of how many dpIUI I am and have to look at the day before's post just to be sure.

4dpIUI

Wow has today been a gassy day! "its not smelly" as C would say, just gas! Other then that the day went well. It was a long day at work being that today was the second Open House that school held. So I worked the 8 hour day then an extra 1.5 hours. I was SO ready to go home and get in to bed.

On the way home, the cramps started again. Along with a strange pain on my right side, sort of between my side and my back, strange. Totally from being over worked today.

Supps. going well. Nothing new there.

Until tomorrow...

3dpIUI

Same as yesterday with cramping which I have narrowed down to mainly happening at night ( just got a wave of them!)

O and today starts the first day  ( hopefully of the first 10 weeks!) of progesterone supps. It was a little messy but not as bad as I thought it would be.

2dpIUI

2-Days Past IUI

Thank the good lord that the bloating has gone away and I could wear jean pants to work today! The cramping was still slight but enough for me to notice so I called the RE like the freak I am. They reassured me that it was normal and that I could take Tylenol for it and also use a heating pad ( lady do you know how hot it was outside today!)

Thankfully my appetite seems to be gearing back up a bit. This morning I actually ate something, yogurt with special k added in for crunch. I ate a small lunch with the kids then an afternoon snack with them as well. I have just been SO thirsty!

C and I went to the girls Softball game ( double header) and they won both! Go Team!

GO AUGUST!!!!

My 3 Little Birds

Mama and her 2 babies. I hope they bring me some luck!

1dpIUI

Or for those of you who don't speak Infertility (IF)
1DayPastIUI

Same bloating as yesterday but much less. The plan was to wear shorts but alas I put them on and it almost hurt =(
So I resorted to my dress =)

Still not very hungry but did manage to eat Grandma's roast and some bread. After grandma's C and I went to the mall looking for some shoes for her and The Boy and something for Baby G ( unborn Godson). We found some black shoes for C to wear to work and some Spiderman shoes for The Boy. He wont get them until his mom's baby shower in Oct. It will be the gift that is for him =)

On the way home we stopped for gas and C asked if I wanted " something with flavor" being that I had been drinking water all day. "No, my stomach is not feeling well", "are you sure??" she asked about 5 times and then said " Im getting you Sprite". Which in the end made my stomach feel better. So thanks baby!

When we got home we noticed that the Mourning Dove who once again has nested on our front porch had her baby..o wait BABIES! She had two babies this time! Exciting..especially now there are


"Three little birds pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs of melodies pure and true; saying, 
"This is my message to you-ou-ou.”

We've been sperminated!

Stats-
25.7 million post wash
Motility- 4 ( which was the highest they could be at!)

I woke up this morning around 8, both from being excited and my stomach not feeling so well, mainly heartburn. So I got up, did some laundry, had some breakfast and then around 9:30, took a shower. When the shower was done, it was time to wake C up. So, she woke up got ready and we were out of the house by 11:45am.

IUI went well with some cramping during but overall good! As I was laying on the table before we left I noticed that on the board next to me on the wall, there was a bunch of push pins that seemed to be just stuck on the board in no order. They were not all the way pushed in, so I decided to push them in. As soon as I did I noticed that they formed a heart! It made both C and I smile. C also decided to let the spermies know that if they swam fast enough, she would by it ( or them) whatever they wanted when they got older. he he he

After IUI, I was pretty tired and hungry. So C and I stopped at Wing Stop and then got some fruit by her mom's house. When we got to her mom's I took a much needed nap.

Here's to hoping that we get through these next 2 weeks fast and also hoping that blood work to check if I ovulated comes back good as well.

For those of you who read this blog and are on my Facebook or that I know in real life, please refrain from asking about any of this on Facebook. We would like to keep this information to our selves. This is also the reason why not everyone has  the link to my blog. We will share information good or bad as C and I feel comfortable. We also may not post results to our beta the day we get them. If this is the case please wait until we post them to ask how it has gone. If the news is good, I am sure that C and I will want to bask in the good news on our own for a few days. On the other hand, if the news is not good, then we will need time to our selves to recoup and get ready for the next steps.


 Also, I would like to thank everyone for the well wishes that we have been given the last few days, it means so much to C and I. Not everyone knows what this journey is like and we are grateful to have people who support us.

Now, it is time for bed. A body trying to get pregnant and grow a baby needs sleep!

Update on Trigger

This morning I headed on over to the REI clinic, HCG in hand. I handed it over and the receptionist wished me good luck this cycle. They finally call my name and I go back with the nurse. 

"Go ahead and drop your pants and bend over the counter" 

  "sure..."

and it was done. She added a little bandaid and I was done. I went with her to the reception area to make tomorrow's apt. 

So...tomorrow @ 12:30= inspermination time!  On the way to work I started to have mild cramping and by the time I got to work, I had  a pretty bad headache. All day was sort of a fog, so I left early. C and I were home about 5:45 and we went to sleep. However I woke up about 8:30 STARVING, unfortunately, my stomach wont let me eat much =(

On another note...

I realize that this journey brings up loads of questions from others that I may not talk about. If anyone has questions about our journey, please feel free to leave a comment and ask, nothing is off limits. I will only answer questions from those that leave their name however.

Spermcicles!

So last night C and I were talking about how the RE told me to take OPK's until I get a +. I also said " i NEVER get a positive! why waste this nice follie that is growing!"

C agreed and suggested that I call to double check with REs NP who we saw at yesterdays ultra sound. So I made the call on my lunch, here is about how the conversation went.

" Hi I had a ultrasound yesterday and was told by NP to use OPK's until I get a positive the call , but honestly I wont Ovulate on my own and was wondering if we would be using the HcG trigger shot this time?"
   "O Sure, let me go look at your chart and as a NP what they think"
"No Problem"

::insert Kaiser commercials on healthcare etc::

"Hi, J, So NP would like you to come in tomorrow morning to trigger and plan for IUI Saturday"
  "Wait, what? Really?"
"Yup!"

HOLY.COW.

I was surprised! My E2 levels came back 198 yesterday and NP said they were better than expected!!

So C shall pick up our spermcicles tomorrow and Saturday morning, we are off to be injected!

Keep us in your thoughts as we get through the 2 week wait (2ww) and pray that this is the month for us!!!

Scared

Although I am hopeful this month is the moth for a BFP, those thoughts that seem to creep back all the time have arrived. I am still hopeful but im scared. I am so scared to go into the follie check tomorrow and have nothing there. The last time I did 150mg of Clomid for 5 days ( this time was 7 days) I had nothing growing.

I'm scared...

E2 Results

On CD 11 E2 levels are at 107!

I initially freaked out thinking that the number wasn't high enough ( and who knows it may not be) but im not going to stress! The last time they were taken it was at 82 ( about a year ago when I was not Oing on my own at all) So I will take any rise in numbers I can get. I am hoping since yesterday when the blood was taken it was only cd11 we are still really early in the game!

Grow Follies Grow!

E2 today

I had planned to give my follies a day more to grow and take E2 on Monday. I then realized that with C working nights and this week being a little hectic ( Dr's apts and SIL going to AI as well) I wont get a chance to get to the DR tomorrow. So I shall go today....

Let's hope for great numbers!!!

Dull achy feeling TAKE II!

I wake up this morning ( C still sleeping after 15 hours!!!) to the dull achy feeling on my left side now. Some of the girls on the message board i frequent say its a good thing. Let's hope so!

GO AUGUST!!!!

Last day is kickin my butt!

Tonight was the last night of Clomid. Hopefully that means the hot flashes will subside a bit. Today they seem to be coming in waves unlike days before when i only had a few a day. While siting at my desk today and o wow right now, i have a dull achy pain on my right side near my ovary, could it be follies growing?! I sure hope so!

I go in Monday to have b/w for E2 levels and im REALLY nervous that it will come back with not to steller results. I have also decided that I want C to get the news when we have our beta. I want her to be able to break it to me that we get a BFP this month ( okay or in reality if we get a BFN again).

C has started working nights so I sleep on my own now, which is nice but also lonely at the same time. The clomid makes me so bloated at night its hard to get comfortable so when she isnt here I can lay how I want.

GO AUGUST!

2 more days of Clomid!

Horah! I was worried when we didn't get the Rx for longer then 5 days but RE just called and said he sent in a new RX for 2 more days worth!

Grow Follies Grow!

Well Hello There

Well Hello to you too Aunt Flo!

This morning as I lay in bed I thought " It feels like AF is here, nah, I wont get my hopes up" So I stagger to the bathroom half awake and wanting to go back to sleep. Slump on the toilet and look down to my green shorts. HOLY COW! She came! So I clean up get ready for work and go into the room to tell C.

I shake her gently and as she wakes up I tell her. She opens one eye, looks at me, gives me a high five and falls back asleep.

So on the way to work I tell my self " I wont call RE until Lunch" Yea, that didn't last long. As soon as I got out of the car I called. Talked to a nice nurse who said that she would send the RX for Clomid over to the pharmacy and I should plan to start on Saturday! EEEKKK!!!!!

Then around 11:30ish I get a call from them. I call back around 12:00 and RN says " RX is filled and can be picked up. Start 150mg of Cloimid on Saturday for 5 days. Ultrasound on 18th @ 9, O and bring your hcg with you as we might trigger you that day!

Holy Cow! Let's go AUGUST!

Three Little Birds..Cont

So today I decided to go for a walk on my lunch. My work is right on a Nature Preserve sort of and has a great trail and walk way. So as im walking, I get to the end of the trail and see this..

Three Little Birds... 

Today was a great day......

Thank you Bob

Being that I am being EXTREMELY positive and honestly taking any "good luck" signs that I can get this morning was a great one. I love Bob Marley and when I got in the car this morning and turn on my iPod, "Three Little Birds" came on <3<3<3<3

Rise up this mornin', 
Smiled with the risin' sun, 
Three little birds 
Pitch by my doorstep 
Singin' sweet songs 
Of melodies pure and true, 
Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou:") 

Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing, 
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right." 
Singin': "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing, 
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

So I drive to work happy and singing.

Then I come into the classroom an how funny, the children are listening to the childrens version of Bob Marley songs and, "Three Litte Birds" is on!

Ok I get it, everything will be alright..

Then as a kicker, Pandora suggests that I listen to my Bob Marley station this morning..

I also think its funny because for the 2nd time in about a month a Mourning Dove has chosen our front porch to nest and have her baby  =)

Im a happy girl today

Why today is awesome

C and I had a great Sunday which always makes for a great Monday but here are a few more reasons why today is awesome!

-Read books to my 4 year olds at work ( I <3 them)

- Watched the clouds with one of the little's at work

-Used a tube to have a conversation with another little at work ( We talked for about 10 mins about her upcoming beach trip)

-Had AMAZING Watermelon at lunch with the kids. This afternoon we plan on making "Watermelon Snowcones"

Plus,
Tonight is the Softball Game!

Could today get any better?!